This last month, the first of 2016, has tested me. Throwing at me all kinds of physical trials. It knocked my confidence, and self doubt was beginning to edge in through the cracks.
But we’ve been here before, maybe without the physical ill health, and I have come out of it the other side stronger and more stubborn to succeed. This time is no different.
I realise I have to adapt, instead of allowing new impairments disable me, I am going to work around them and find new ways. Growing is learning about ones self, things can and will change, and to resist this, or settle is futile. Acceptance of this change, taking from it the positive and working with that is what is important.
I entered my self portrait photograph from the Together Women Project into a competition for Leeds Museums Changing Faces of Leeds. I was encouraged to do so, and I am glad I listened, because I won first prize in the category of Self Portraits. It has spurred me on. I am capable – I had shingles when the photographs were taken, and if I was ill then, I am strong now.
Today, I began photographing my groups at Pyramid of Arts again. And I took my camera out on a dog walk as the sun was setting. I didn’t take many photographs, but my confidence is returning. My health is not a barrier it is a reason to continue to photograph. Always in whatever health.